Wednesday, July 12, 2006

Poem: Apathy, Salvation, Solitude

Once was a time when all was nice and neat.
Once was a time when all was clean and pure.
Once was a time when I knew my place
And now I find I am not sure.
Locked was I, in solitude and shame
And I was comfortable in my despair.
But now I see the darkness around me
And I realize that I actually do care.
So what can one do, what can one be?
How can one change the comfort of life?
When what one is simply is not who he was
And he must find who he was or else die.
As it was sung, in the strangest of places
The light is shown if looked at right.
I think I found what I need in the strangest of places
And I am now insecure and trapped in fright.
When I was sad I could see that I did not mind
If the sadness was taken suddenly away
But joy is what I feel and it’s too good to be real
And I am afraid this dream will end with the day.
The right person, wrong time is the dilemma of fate
The catch where I find I’m not free
This person is perfect in every such way
Except she has no room in her life for me.
So I sit here and sulk, I sit here and cry
I cannot believe this joke G-d has played.
I did not know I was lost or alone
Until this day where I was almost saved.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Wow, Kan...that was good.

You had me crying.

Gal said...

This poem put me in mind of this song:

Artist: Jon Spencer Blues Explosion Lyrics
Song: Right Place, Wrong Time Lyrics

"I was in the right place, but it must have been the wrong time
I was sayin' the right things, but I must have used the wrong line
I was on the right trip, but I must have used the wrong car
Head is in a bad place and I wonder what it's good for
I was in the right place, but it must have been the wrong time
My head is in a bad place, but I'm havin' such a good time

I've been runnin', tryin' to get hung up in my mind
Really got to give myself a good talkin' to this time
Just need a little brain salad surgery
I got to cure my insecurity

And I was in the wrong place, but it must have been the right time
I was in the right place, but it must have been the wrong song
I was in the right thing, but it seemed like a wrong wrong
'Cause I was in the right world,
but it seemed like a wrong, wrong, wrong, wrong, wrong

Slippin', dodgin', sneakin', peepin', hidin' out down the street
See my life shakin' with every who I meet
Refried confusion is a-makin' itself clear
Wonder where to, where do I go to get on outta here

'Cause I was in the right place, but it must have been the wrong time
And I was sayin' the right thing, but I must have used the wrong line
I took the right road but I must have took a wrong turn
I took a right move but I made it at the wrong time
I was in the right trip but I made it in the wrong car
My head is in a good place and I wonder what it's there for
'Cause my skull is in a bad place"

kanrei said...

Thanks Gal!
Now the Dr. Hook version is in my head.