Tuesday, June 14, 2016
My Highhorse Vs Yours.
It is so easy to hate. It is too easy to condemn. Guns are too easy to get. Control won't do anything. Muslims want us is dead. I fear. Fear. Fear. Let the bodies hit the floor. There are no victims anymore, just unwilling Pawns and a game they never signed up to play. I realize I'm bout to violate the very thing that I'm condemning by doing this, but it has to be said. I beg of you to forgive my hi horse for the moment. I want you to think about the tragedy in Orlando that happened this weekend. I'm sure you are already, but I want you to focus on something specific. I want you to ask yourself how well do you know the shooter; However old you know the issues that people are pushing; and how much do you know about the victims? I set up my Facebook page that it is OK to sit Shivah. It's of the upmost importance that we remember the victims. It is vital to our over all humanity but we not turn every tragedy into an opportunity to score some type of political points or to prove you were right about something. That is selfish. It tells me you're not sad about what happened; it tells me that you really not concerned about people; it tells me that you actually probably happy something like this happened see you can say see I told you. At a minimum, 103 peoples lives breather ended horribly or forever burdened with the memories that will hunt them. Someone who survived the randomness of life, I really feel for the survivors will be even more overlooked those who diedand those who died but will have to deal with trying to find some sort of rhyme and reason to why they survived and others did not. It is a heavy burden to carry and I really hope they find the help that they are going to need to regain some semblance of life. My prayers to the family's.
Wednesday, June 08, 2016
The Means Define the Ends
It has been said that the ends justify the means, but, in the end it is the means that matter most for the end is never constant, but the means used once forever changes how things will happen next. We constantly see the bar being lowered under the justification of "well, they did it." We cling to some high road mentality as we engage in low road tactics all while ignoring the hypocrites we become in the process.
Ambition only counts when something is hard; if it were easy it would have already been done...whatever "it" may be. And it is how we achieve our ambitions that define us, not the ambitions we achieve. Is it worth world peace, for example, if you have to kill every human being to gain it? Is it worth ending global warming if we must return to the Stone Age to achieve it? Both these means will achieve those ends, but isn't the price just a tad bit too high?
America currently stands at a crossroads, and they seem to be mistaking it for a fork in the road. They assume their choices limited to two. They will be told repeatedly a vote for any other option than the two is like voting for one of the two. They will be told they will be to blame should America end up with a bad choice. They will be bullied, brow-beaten, guilted, cajoled, and condescended too. This is all bullshit, in my not-so-humble opinion.
Is it worth stopping Trump if we end up with Clinton and her warhawk private prison double-speaking Wall Street lying shape-shifting tendencies?
Is it worth stopping Clinton if we end up with Trump and his random uncouth hate-filled empty rhetorical self idolizing short fused vindictive tendencies?
Check your third parties please. Ignore the wasted vote accusations. A wasted vote in my opinion is voting for a bad candidate to stop a bad candidate when there are good candidates out there. If you vote actually FOR someone instead of AGAINST someone else, we might actually get a GOOD President instead of the LESSER of two EVILS.
Thank you for your time.
Ambition only counts when something is hard; if it were easy it would have already been done...whatever "it" may be. And it is how we achieve our ambitions that define us, not the ambitions we achieve. Is it worth world peace, for example, if you have to kill every human being to gain it? Is it worth ending global warming if we must return to the Stone Age to achieve it? Both these means will achieve those ends, but isn't the price just a tad bit too high?
America currently stands at a crossroads, and they seem to be mistaking it for a fork in the road. They assume their choices limited to two. They will be told repeatedly a vote for any other option than the two is like voting for one of the two. They will be told they will be to blame should America end up with a bad choice. They will be bullied, brow-beaten, guilted, cajoled, and condescended too. This is all bullshit, in my not-so-humble opinion.
Is it worth stopping Trump if we end up with Clinton and her warhawk private prison double-speaking Wall Street lying shape-shifting tendencies?
Is it worth stopping Clinton if we end up with Trump and his random uncouth hate-filled empty rhetorical self idolizing short fused vindictive tendencies?
Check your third parties please. Ignore the wasted vote accusations. A wasted vote in my opinion is voting for a bad candidate to stop a bad candidate when there are good candidates out there. If you vote actually FOR someone instead of AGAINST someone else, we might actually get a GOOD President instead of the LESSER of two EVILS.
Thank you for your time.
Sunday, June 05, 2016
Last Political Post?
This could quite possibly be my last political post ever. I am that disgusted with this election cycle on all fronts. I have tried to mostly avoid really getting into it, but I am going to go for broke right now because I have to say it....somebody does.
If MSNBC does as Chris Matthews said they would and declare Clinton the Democratic Nominee at 8PM EST while the polls are still open for three hours, I am finished with politics forever and am finished with the news media forever. It will be that final proof that we live in with an illusion of choice where media manipulation overpowers free will and free thought. It will prove will no longer are humans, but are truly lemmings eager to run over that cliff. Calling all wayward lemmings!
So what exactly is a "wayward lemming?" I'm sure you have asked that at least once to yourself. A "Wayward Lemming" is a lemming or follower that has seen a few too many predecessors fall to their deaths by following the popular trend. They are a lemming who suddenly decided to try something different, but has no clue as to what to try, who to follow, or where to go. A "wayward lemming" is a new born baby in the body of an adult searching for identity.
OK, so, now that that tangent is over, let's get back to my angry rant before I stop being angry and forget what I was talking about.
The one aspect of this election cycle I have really avoid talking about until now is the overt bias in the media and in the electoral process. Between the two, the system really is rigged against almost all "threats" to the system. Trump is a bit of an anomaly, but I will get to him later.
When Debbie Wasserman Schultz said that the purpose of Superdelegates was to protect the party elite from grassroots candidates, there should have been a call to all Democrats that the system was rigged against them. When the media continuously said Sanders couldn't win despite his run at the primaries and his rising poll numbers and his growing crowds of supporters, the people should have questioned the purpose of the "news." They didn't: they were good lemmings. They repeated as they were told: I like Sanders, but he can't win.
Trump has bucked the odds and it is amazing. He says incredibly horrible things, but then the media tends to take context out of other things that are benign and turns those into real major stories which basically destroys their credibility to anyone who bothers to see what Trump actually said. I don't understand why they feel a need to take a really bad candidate who was destined to lose and turn him into an almost sympathetic symbol of media bullying. I won't vote for him, but a part of me kind of hopes he wins because of it.
I said once here to imagine of Hitler, Stalin, and FDR were all running for President and we dismissed FDR. I want to really think about that. Trump is a wildcard who is so "off the cuff" that you don't know what kind of President he will be day-to-day; what stupid thing he will say at the wrong time to the wrong person; if he will even stay committed to being President for four long years or will he get bored of it. It is too many variable for me to vote for him. But Clinton...
Hillary Clinton is not a wildcard and what she says really is meaningless white noise. She is a master at saying what needs to be said to get her objective done. Both she and her husband are among the best at making you believe they believe what you believe. She has been exposed numerous times already saying contradictory things based on a swing in polls. A true chameleon with a venomous stinger. She has thirty years of us knowing how she uses power: from her time as First Lady, to her time in the Senate to her time as Secretary of State; experience only matters if you learn from it and all she learns is how to better sell her failures as simply an external flaw in her vision. Her Iraq war vote was wrong because of Bush. Her support for Libya was the fault of Obama's lack of commitment. Her support to get into the Ukraine was also crushed because of Obama's lack of vision. Her Syrian plans were crushed because of a weak government. Her African adventures continue unreported to this day.
She is the worst America can offer: A Neocon Warhawk who manages to get Liberal support for far-right wing agendas. She is the candidate of choice of the PNAC crowd, the Koch brothers, the Military Industrial Complex, the Private Prisons, Wall Street, the Mainstream Media, the Pollsters, the editorial boards of numerous newspapers- if this doesn't terrify you, I don't know what will. And I won't even touch the email saga....yet.
Sanders is still in it and his support still grows. And he can still mathematically win regardless of what the "experts" tell you. And if the DNC decides to go with Clinton, I hope and pray Sanders considers a run with Jill Stein. He owes the DNC nothing. They only allowed him to run because there was no Democratic challengers to Clinton and the DNC wanted a primary, not a coronation. I think what he owes America as the only real chance we have to avoid pointless war, gain stability, and catch up with the modern world is more important.
Thanks for reading even if you vehemently disagree.
If MSNBC does as Chris Matthews said they would and declare Clinton the Democratic Nominee at 8PM EST while the polls are still open for three hours, I am finished with politics forever and am finished with the news media forever. It will be that final proof that we live in with an illusion of choice where media manipulation overpowers free will and free thought. It will prove will no longer are humans, but are truly lemmings eager to run over that cliff. Calling all wayward lemmings!
So what exactly is a "wayward lemming?" I'm sure you have asked that at least once to yourself. A "Wayward Lemming" is a lemming or follower that has seen a few too many predecessors fall to their deaths by following the popular trend. They are a lemming who suddenly decided to try something different, but has no clue as to what to try, who to follow, or where to go. A "wayward lemming" is a new born baby in the body of an adult searching for identity.
OK, so, now that that tangent is over, let's get back to my angry rant before I stop being angry and forget what I was talking about.
The one aspect of this election cycle I have really avoid talking about until now is the overt bias in the media and in the electoral process. Between the two, the system really is rigged against almost all "threats" to the system. Trump is a bit of an anomaly, but I will get to him later.
When Debbie Wasserman Schultz said that the purpose of Superdelegates was to protect the party elite from grassroots candidates, there should have been a call to all Democrats that the system was rigged against them. When the media continuously said Sanders couldn't win despite his run at the primaries and his rising poll numbers and his growing crowds of supporters, the people should have questioned the purpose of the "news." They didn't: they were good lemmings. They repeated as they were told: I like Sanders, but he can't win.
Trump has bucked the odds and it is amazing. He says incredibly horrible things, but then the media tends to take context out of other things that are benign and turns those into real major stories which basically destroys their credibility to anyone who bothers to see what Trump actually said. I don't understand why they feel a need to take a really bad candidate who was destined to lose and turn him into an almost sympathetic symbol of media bullying. I won't vote for him, but a part of me kind of hopes he wins because of it.
I said once here to imagine of Hitler, Stalin, and FDR were all running for President and we dismissed FDR. I want to really think about that. Trump is a wildcard who is so "off the cuff" that you don't know what kind of President he will be day-to-day; what stupid thing he will say at the wrong time to the wrong person; if he will even stay committed to being President for four long years or will he get bored of it. It is too many variable for me to vote for him. But Clinton...
Hillary Clinton is not a wildcard and what she says really is meaningless white noise. She is a master at saying what needs to be said to get her objective done. Both she and her husband are among the best at making you believe they believe what you believe. She has been exposed numerous times already saying contradictory things based on a swing in polls. A true chameleon with a venomous stinger. She has thirty years of us knowing how she uses power: from her time as First Lady, to her time in the Senate to her time as Secretary of State; experience only matters if you learn from it and all she learns is how to better sell her failures as simply an external flaw in her vision. Her Iraq war vote was wrong because of Bush. Her support for Libya was the fault of Obama's lack of commitment. Her support to get into the Ukraine was also crushed because of Obama's lack of vision. Her Syrian plans were crushed because of a weak government. Her African adventures continue unreported to this day.
She is the worst America can offer: A Neocon Warhawk who manages to get Liberal support for far-right wing agendas. She is the candidate of choice of the PNAC crowd, the Koch brothers, the Military Industrial Complex, the Private Prisons, Wall Street, the Mainstream Media, the Pollsters, the editorial boards of numerous newspapers- if this doesn't terrify you, I don't know what will. And I won't even touch the email saga....yet.
Sanders is still in it and his support still grows. And he can still mathematically win regardless of what the "experts" tell you. And if the DNC decides to go with Clinton, I hope and pray Sanders considers a run with Jill Stein. He owes the DNC nothing. They only allowed him to run because there was no Democratic challengers to Clinton and the DNC wanted a primary, not a coronation. I think what he owes America as the only real chance we have to avoid pointless war, gain stability, and catch up with the modern world is more important.
Thanks for reading even if you vehemently disagree.
Friday, June 03, 2016
Why Yes...Yes I Am
I think it is time to out myself and no, I am not gay...not that there's anything wrong with that. What I am is Asexual. I took a few online quizzes and I am what they call "Grey -A" Asexual. This means I don't mind doing things and do have a preference between sexes, but I just don't have that drive to "bring it all home." I will play football, but have no desire to score a touchdown; I just enjoy the game. I will play baseball, but am quite happy at first or second base. I get home sometimes certainly, but that is to make the team happy and not due to an internal desire to score. Nope, I am quite Asexual it seems.
When I have brought this subject up before, it has always been dismissed as either a side-effect of medication I am on, a simple fact I have yet to meet that right person, or recently as an after-effect of my cancer treatments, but I must sadly say none of the above is correct. When I look back on my life I clearly see that I am just not a sexual creature and that is fine really.
I got my first girlfriend when I was fifteen. She picked me up at a skating rink (kids, ask your parents) I was at while pledging a high school frat. I didn't get in the frat, but I did get a girl, so I think I won overall. And it was fun; a lot of fun. We did everything together and I was totally in head over heals love with this girl, but we didn't have sex. We fooled around; we explored like kids do; we teased and played: we did all that, but I never broke the barrier. I didn't want to. It wasn't important to me. Everyone assumed we were having sex like bunnies in heat because we did play around A LOT, but nope; no sex. Not until I turned eighteen and felt I wanted to keep this girl even though I was leaving for college. It was for her I did IT, not for me. It was nice, but it wasn't as much fun as other things we did and I just wasn't moved to want to do it more.
I went to college and my lack of a sex drive kept me very faithful to my girl friend back home, but her discovery of a sex drive made it hard for her to do the same for me. She was an attractive girl in her last year of high school and was finding herself popular. While I blamed and cursed her at the time, I can understand in retrospect. She broke up with me quite a few times during that freshman year and for some reason I kept taking her back. Eventually this girl brought out my dark side and I will write about that another day. Nothing fatal or illegal, so relax.
I went a few years without either a girl friend or casual sex after the break up. I had sex with one girl who I did like because I thought that was what I was supposed to do, but it didn't work out. Great friend, but no romance.
I met another girl a year or so later and fell again head over heals in love and this time we were sexually active, but I just wasn't there mentally for that final act. I think she sensed it. We dated for years, but the sex slowly faded as I think I just couldn't keep faking interest in that. I loved everything else and could do foreplay for hours, but when it came time to doing IT, I would mentally check out.
When that relationship ended, I think I used the hurt of it as an excuse to the world as to why I wasn't engaging with or looking for anyone, but I think inside I was kind of happy to have that pressure of sex lifted off of me.
So here we are some 25 years later and I am finally admitting I am Asexual. I love women. I really do. I have fantasies and desires and such, but I don't want sex. It doesn't interest me in the slightest. I know there are others out there like me and I know I will eventually find another and live in asexual bliss, so I am not worried. Ironically, a side-effect of the cancer treatments that would destroy most men is no big deal to me: I can't ejaculate. TMI? Tough! And yes I am hiding this in another paragraph fully aware it should be a new one, so deal with that too! I think that news would destroy most men, but I take it as an asset and a shield to those who questioned why I wasn't sexually active: I couldn't be. Me? I am quite happy to be Asexual and can't imagine being any other way.
When I have brought this subject up before, it has always been dismissed as either a side-effect of medication I am on, a simple fact I have yet to meet that right person, or recently as an after-effect of my cancer treatments, but I must sadly say none of the above is correct. When I look back on my life I clearly see that I am just not a sexual creature and that is fine really.
I got my first girlfriend when I was fifteen. She picked me up at a skating rink (kids, ask your parents) I was at while pledging a high school frat. I didn't get in the frat, but I did get a girl, so I think I won overall. And it was fun; a lot of fun. We did everything together and I was totally in head over heals love with this girl, but we didn't have sex. We fooled around; we explored like kids do; we teased and played: we did all that, but I never broke the barrier. I didn't want to. It wasn't important to me. Everyone assumed we were having sex like bunnies in heat because we did play around A LOT, but nope; no sex. Not until I turned eighteen and felt I wanted to keep this girl even though I was leaving for college. It was for her I did IT, not for me. It was nice, but it wasn't as much fun as other things we did and I just wasn't moved to want to do it more.
I went to college and my lack of a sex drive kept me very faithful to my girl friend back home, but her discovery of a sex drive made it hard for her to do the same for me. She was an attractive girl in her last year of high school and was finding herself popular. While I blamed and cursed her at the time, I can understand in retrospect. She broke up with me quite a few times during that freshman year and for some reason I kept taking her back. Eventually this girl brought out my dark side and I will write about that another day. Nothing fatal or illegal, so relax.
I went a few years without either a girl friend or casual sex after the break up. I had sex with one girl who I did like because I thought that was what I was supposed to do, but it didn't work out. Great friend, but no romance.
I met another girl a year or so later and fell again head over heals in love and this time we were sexually active, but I just wasn't there mentally for that final act. I think she sensed it. We dated for years, but the sex slowly faded as I think I just couldn't keep faking interest in that. I loved everything else and could do foreplay for hours, but when it came time to doing IT, I would mentally check out.
When that relationship ended, I think I used the hurt of it as an excuse to the world as to why I wasn't engaging with or looking for anyone, but I think inside I was kind of happy to have that pressure of sex lifted off of me.
So here we are some 25 years later and I am finally admitting I am Asexual. I love women. I really do. I have fantasies and desires and such, but I don't want sex. It doesn't interest me in the slightest. I know there are others out there like me and I know I will eventually find another and live in asexual bliss, so I am not worried. Ironically, a side-effect of the cancer treatments that would destroy most men is no big deal to me: I can't ejaculate. TMI? Tough! And yes I am hiding this in another paragraph fully aware it should be a new one, so deal with that too! I think that news would destroy most men, but I take it as an asset and a shield to those who questioned why I wasn't sexually active: I couldn't be. Me? I am quite happy to be Asexual and can't imagine being any other way.
Thursday, June 02, 2016
Um....Yeah; Its Something
This is why I can't be a professional writer: it is either there or it is not. I can't force it and I am trying right now to force it. I want to write, but literally have nothing of importance to say right now. I could write another essay on writer's block and do that "meta" thing I always do of writing about how I am writing for the sake of writing, but I have done that so many times already; including last week with the essay about destroying.
Yes, I could easily probably pull 500 words out of my ass about Trump or Clinton or Sanders or the state of political discourse in America or the failing of the media to remain objective during an election or any number of various rants you can read on hundreds of websites by name much better known than my own. It would be easy and moot.
I could return to my old online haunt to engage in meaningless flame wars with an endless array of trolls and tell myself it is in the name of keeping my typing skills fluid. And yes, I have used that very excuse before to justify my pointless arguments. It also would be easy, but also quite moot.
And no, I am not depressed today in the slightest. I could be and probably should be given my car's recent kerfuffle, but I am not. I just don't seem to be in the mood to write today and thought it would be an apt time to show why I can't write professionally. Who would pay for this?
=D
Yes, I could easily probably pull 500 words out of my ass about Trump or Clinton or Sanders or the state of political discourse in America or the failing of the media to remain objective during an election or any number of various rants you can read on hundreds of websites by name much better known than my own. It would be easy and moot.
I could return to my old online haunt to engage in meaningless flame wars with an endless array of trolls and tell myself it is in the name of keeping my typing skills fluid. And yes, I have used that very excuse before to justify my pointless arguments. It also would be easy, but also quite moot.
And no, I am not depressed today in the slightest. I could be and probably should be given my car's recent kerfuffle, but I am not. I just don't seem to be in the mood to write today and thought it would be an apt time to show why I can't write professionally. Who would pay for this?
=D
Wednesday, June 01, 2016
Sessionless
No session today as my...not sure what you call her, counselor or is it therapist or maybe talking-listen person....not sure. Anyway, she is out of the country this week, thus the "two week" theme of last week's post. Don't seem to have anything on my mind either. Kind of nice actually. Going to go enjoy the silence.
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