A week off for me from delving into my mind as Thera was sick today. Sadly, I skipped last night's support group (for the second week in a row) due to weather. I really need to go to that thing more than I do, but living so far from it is a pain in the arse to be honest. I hate the wait after work before it starts and I hate the drive at the end of such a long day. They do help however and, more importantly, I feel I help others there, so I really have to make an effort to recommit to that group. They are really good and nice people after all and socializing isn't bad for me.
Today, if I were in session, I would have spoken about how today is great proof of the randomness of life and how nothing really matters in the long run. Sadly, I think today also showed me Karma is a myth, so that could be problematic in the long run, but I am getting off subject-
Yesterday, as you know, I returned a twenty to the bank they gave me in error. If life followed a plan or there was Karma, that should be a check in the "good" box for me, right? Well, today I discovered why I had yet to receive my debt card even though it expires in 10 days- someone else got it. It seems that not only did someone else get it, but they figured out a way to use it without activating it because, upon checking my account today, I found out someone charged $100 at Starbucks and $10 at some online shoe store I had never heard of.
Is the Universe pissed at me for returning $20 they tried to slip to me? If I believed in cause and effect in life's treatment of you, like I used to, I would be looking at, analyzing, and fixating on what life was trying to tell me in this series of events that obviously had to mean something, but nope; no meaning, no purpose, no nothing...just some random shit that lined up in an interesting way.
My attitude remains intact after this test of my philosophy and I went through it all with a smile and not even a little annoyed by it all. I simply went to the bank, filled out some paperwork, canceled my card, ordered a new one, and went about my day with my mood unaltered.
It did amuse me when I walked into the bank. The bank manager from yesterday looked up from her desk, smiled at me, and said "did we do it again?" It was cute.
You're in the NOW now!
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